Out of fear for my life, I submitted to sucking his dick, being fucked in my ass, and performing other duties as a woman, such as making his bed. And are part of a gang. They pick a loner smaller weaker individual. And make that person into a homosexual then sell him to other inmates or gangs. Anywhere from a pack of cigarettes to 2 cartons. No one cares about you or anyone else.
If they show kindness or are trying to be helpful, it is only because they want something. And if there offering you protection you can guarantee that there going to seek sexual favors. When an inmate comes in for the first time and doesnt know anyone.
The clicks and gangs. Watch him like Wolves readying there attacks. They see if he spends time alone, who he eats with.
Its like the Wild Kingdom. Then they start playing with him, checking the new guy out. They call him fresh meat. When I first came to prison, I had no idea what to expect. Certainly none of this. I'm a tall white male, who unfortunately has a small amount of feminine characteristics. These characteristics have got me raped so many times I have no more feelings physically.
I have been raped by up to 5 black men and two white men at a time. I've had knifes at my head and throat. I had fought and been beat so hard that I didn't ever think I'd see straight again. One time when I refused to enter a cell, I was brutally attacked by staff and taken to segragation though I had only wanted to prevent the same and worse by not locking up with my cell mate.
There is no supervision after lockdown. I was given a conduct report. I explained to the hearing officer what the issue was. I've requested protective custody only to be denied. It is not available here. He also said there was no where to run to, and it would be best for me to accept things.
I probably have AIDS now. I have great difficulty raising food to my mouth from shaking after nightmares or thinking to hard on all this. I've laid down without physical fight to be sodomized. To prevent so much damage in struggles, ripping and tearing. Though in not fighting, it caused my heart and spirit to be raped as well.
Something I don't know if I'll ever forgive myself for. To begin with on Aug 1, Approx: Than around and about Aug 16, i was sexual assaulted by the same two 2 inmate's. I was then taking to the medical department in cristeanna hospital for treatment. It's a big Rumor that one inmate has Aid's.
Because of their crime, the general population justifies using their weakness by labling rape "just punishment" for their crime. Sexual offenders are the number one target group for prisoner rape. Inmates who come to prison at an early age are the second target group. Being younger, more physically attractive, and less likely to be infected with H. In Texas prisons race is the main issue and until people wake up and realize that nothing will change!
From that it left me HIV positive. Both times the staff refused to do anything except to lock me up and make accusations that I'm homosexual and that if I pursue legal action they'd ship me and both times they did. The victim is usually tricked into owing a favor. Here this is usually drugs, with the perpetrator seeming to be, to the victim, a really swell fellow and all.
Of course he has no drugs or money, and the only alternative is sexual favors. Once a prisoner is "turned-out," it's pretty much a done deal. I guess a good many victims just want to do their time and not risk any trouble, so they submit. The coercion-type abuses continue because of their covert nature. From the way such attacks manifest, it can seem to others, administrators and prisoners, that the victims are just homosexual to begin with.
Why else would they allow such a thing to happen, people might ask. My weight was only lbs, the first few months i was raped and beat up many times, i would always Fight back, i wanted my attackers to know i was not a Willing Subject for their evilness. I went to the Guards for help and was told there was nothing that could be done, that i would have to stand up like a Man and Take Care of my own troubles.
They hurt, someone must pay. Being deprived of consensual sex, and self-centered, any hole will do. Power, control, revenge, seem to top the "reasons" for rape. The person assaulted is either seen as weaker, or gang banged if seen as stuck up kind of person. You know, refuses to swear, actually admits he is guilty, is seeking help etc. I have yet to hear of an inmate being charged in court with sexual assault of an inmate.
If just one was found guilty, got more time, things would change. I was held down while at least 3 black inmates had anal intercourse using my rectum as their sexual pleasure release! From that day on, I was classified as a homosexual and was sold from one inmate to the next. Blacks tend to rape the white inmates and force themselves on weaker inmates!
I am one of the weaker inmates! Guys watch these things. What if they told, what could happen to them. I know you think they should tell what happens to them.
But until you put yourself in there shoes you don't know what you do. Some prisons are hard. One thing guys don't like is guys who tell on others. What are your chances if you told on someone? My rape is known thru out the system as everyone know the person who did it likes to brag so its unsafe for me to be in population as now I'm a snitch, homo and my safety would be in jeopardy.
Even the officers laugh about it. I bet he's going to be walking with a limp ha ha ha. In here, the egos multiply a lot more than in society. Now I've seen this happen many many times.
The response from the guards is "the strong survive," "who cares," or they join in on the teasing, tourmenting, etc. I knew two men who hung themselves after this. The mentality of a lot of guards is that it's only a convicted felon screwing another, so who cares?
If I had told on the inmates, They would have gotten me in another part of the Prison. Even Protective Custody Facility. Part of it is revenge against what the non-white prisoners call, "The White Man," meaning authority and the justice system.
A common comment is, "ya'll may run it out there, but this is our world! They just wanted the status of having a "Kid. They just wanted some sexual satisfaction, even though they knew I was not deriving pleasure from it, and was there only because I was forced to.
I was with the Valluco Valley crowd, so I was only passed around to them for free. Town Hispanics had to pay. M, a security officer with the rank of sargeant, came to investigate the series of latest allegations. After plaintiff vehemently protested that he was being truthful, defendant J.
I did nine years from March to November In that 9 years I was raped several times. I never told on anyone for it, but did ask the officer for protective custody. But I was just sent to another part of the prison. Sent to another part of the prison. This went on for 9 years. I didn't want to tell on the inmates who raped me because I didn't want to be killed.