A letter from January 5th, Dear FutureMe, So, i guess this is as good a time as any to really catch you up on life. Or at least I hope it's only a phase. I mean, we're just really physically into each other.
Every time we're even a little alone we're all over each other. And I'm not even going to try and say it's all jacob, because it isnt.
I mean I really want him. On one hand I really want to say it's him because we'll be kissing and making out, whatever, but then he'll lick me, or start playing with my nipples, and god, like i can't And my self control will be going strong and he'll just fricken turn me on so hard and god, i love it. Man, if only I could make him as happy as he makes me. God he really knows how to turn me on. I don't know how to please him. I know he really likes it when Im on him while we're making out.
So, i do that occasionally. Okay, are you dying for specifics since your memory sucks? So, at the picnic, that was the first time we made out.
I don't think anything can ever be that good. The sun was shining. We took it slow. We made out for probably 2 hours total. We just learned what each other liked. And he felt me up outside my clothes. It was a great way to get introduced to making out. Perfect way for us to get used to the idea. So after that date we decided to go to the outlet mall. The mall was good. We ate lunch, got coffee, walked around, but it got boring fast.
So we walked to the theatre and saw Into the Woods. It was a musical. A lot more kissing happened than watching the movie. That was okay with me. In that movie was the first time I put my leg over his. It was only over one leg, but it got us closer and we kissed really passionately.
He felt up my leg and got really close to There. Once again he felt me up over my bra and once again we were in public so he couldn't go any farther. The next time I saw him I was over at his house for new years eve. He had me come over two hours before the party started so that we could have some alone time. So there jacob and i were, playing minecraft. Just as we had after the picnic. We kissed a little while his mom and sister were still in the house and his dad was at work.
His sister left for her friends house. His mother yells up the stairs that's she's going to whataburger and leaves. Jacob turns and smiles at me. He asked my permission and i gave it to him. But i was scared and as he felt me up and pulled down the cup of my bra I was scared and it was written all over my face.
When he'd look up at me I'd smile and nod, but I was scared. At one point he stopped moving his hand and looked into my eyes. I guess he found my feelings there. There was nothing he could do. He was new to this too, and all in all, he had done nothing wrong.
He hadn't squeeyed too hard, he hadn't laughed, he hadn't said something about my pimples, he hadn't made any comment on size, or anything else. He'd done everything just right. But still I was scared. His mom got home and he fixed my bra and we ate. Later after the party became too much for me to handle we went back to his place and his hand found its way back into my bra.
And then, like magic, he found my nipple. We were kissing but when he started playing with it , i had to pull my mouth away and he could feel my pleasure. I was still scared, but the pleasure lightened it. My mom showed up at 11 and i left. On the second I went back to his house to "play some more minecraft" this will be explained later I was there for like 7 hours. We made out while trying to play minecraft.
I wore my strapless bra because I promised him that I would. It was a lot easier for him to get under my bra. With his father and sister down stairs watching a movie he put his hand into my strapless bra.
Besides, just one finger. You know, I don't know if he went on to the Internet and found out how to really turn me on, but whatever, it worked. So much so that as he slipped the rest of his hand into my bra I didn't even notice. I think he was pulling on my nipple, and definitely twisting it some.
It hurt, but that just made it all that better. I have to be honest, I was still scared. Especially with his dad and sister in the house. So when he stopped, to try and get some action from the other side and I realized what was happening. I moaned his name. And asked "pretty please? He continued until we left for the chinese food place. It was a buffet. All in all good, but not at all the point of this story.
So when jacob and i got back to his house he wanted to show me something in his room. I cant even remember what. He apologized for making me feel uncomfortable earlier when I told him I didn't want to be felt up with his parents in the house.
I forgave him, i mean for gods sake, it was Good with a capital G so, really I didn't mind that he did. He somehow convinced me to sit on his bed. And then we were making out and then he slipped and we were making out laying down on his bed. Fibally he said that if his parents came in it would look really bad for us to be makin out on his bed so we just laid there, my head on his chest.
He made me keep my coat on to stay away from my chest. I appreciated him trying, but at the same time I was burning up. After a while I couldn't resist. I went back to kissing him. He handed me my glasses. So, as his father enters to ask what movie we ddecided on, i fix my hair, cram my glasses on, and look guit as hell, while jacob mutters that we haven't picked a movie yet.
His father realizes the situation "oh" he turns and leaves. Jacob and i decide to just play minecraft some more. Back in the game room we start making out again.
I take my jacket off. Thank god, I was burning up. He starts back in on my bra, but this time my self control is more in place and i tell hI'm "no. He takes this as a yes. It's not that I wanted to say yes, it's that I gave such a hard time saying no to him. I'm so proud of him taking initiative like he has, and I don't want to kill that, so I really hate saying no.
He kisses my nipple, and puts my bra back in place.